I really have nothing of importance to post about. I am very disappointed with myself over how the last week has went. Sure, some of it wasn't my fault, but I still could have CHOSEN to make better choices even in a situation that was beyond my control. I really stink at that. And I didn't get to go grocery shopping today because of my ankle.
Long-time readers will remember my horribly flat feet, ankle/foot pain, dislocating kneecaps, and possibly even my story of how I was left in a wheelchair for 3 months postpartum because of a compressed sciatic nerve during delivery of my son. I've always been amazed that I never have had any real issues that linger from that ordeal because I had a completely paralyzed hamstring and was also paralyzed from below the knee down. Every once in a while since then I will have some sciatic nerve pain that shoots down my right leg when I bend over or something, but it's not been anything major.
Well, last week my right ankle started really hurting. But it wasn't really my ankle. I couldn't explain it. Ibuprofen didn't help, and ibuprofen always helps my feet issues. Then I noticed the pain "in my ankle" was radiating on down into my two littlest toes. I will even have pain from the right side of the knee down to the ankle through the toes sometimes. It's painful, and a couple of times I almost collapsed. It's not really numbness at this point, but it's more like an intense burning.
It's unusual for me to have constant pain like that, even when my feet and ankles are giving me trouble. So I started googling my specific symptoms. Everything came up as L5-S1 sciatica. That makes sense after the issue that I had a few years back. It makes me wonder if it is something I will always have trouble with off and on. Thankfully, my pain is mostly ONLY when standing. If I stand only on the left foot or am sitting, I don't have pain. But over the past couple of days, I will still have pain when sitting. My two littlest toes will even begin to "draw" and hurt badly. Ugh.
So that's majorly discouraging. I don't know if this is an aggravation of the compressed sciatic nerve I had nearly 5 years ago now or what. Whatever it is, it needs to go away! I'm thankful that it's not back pain that I have to deal with 24/7, but it makes things difficult. I can't go walking around grocery shopping when I am hurting so bad that I can barely walk and can feel my right leg giving out on me from the knee down.
I hope this is something that just sort of goes away, but I talked with a friend of mine today who has similar issues. She said it's probably a bulging disc hitting a nerve in the L5-S1 area, which is exactly what I read online and was hoping against. I'm going to wait it out a bit before pursuing any doctor visit. I can't readily diagnose myself just off google and a girlfriend, so maybe it's not a nerve issue after all.
I was looking so forward to walking the track as the weather gets nicer! This needs to stop. I also know that dropping some weight would probably help the issue, even if it doesn't fix the issue. I need to give myself credit for losing 7 pounds even while just half-heartedly following Trim Healthy Mama, but now I fear that I have gained at least half of that back with my food choices over the last week when "I had no other choice." Ughhhh. Sometimes, I just don't like me. I'm sure sometimes you all don't either. Hey, sometimes I get comments or emails that let me know you don't! LOL I can't blame you. I would like to shake me until some sense gets knocked into me just as much as you would. :)
But I'm me and this is definitely my struggle. I hate reporting it just as much as you all hate reading it. I know that for almost everyone it takes actual work and effort to be slim and healthy. I am not against putting in the work! I just wish that I could stay motivated for longer than a week or two at a time so that I could see real results. I hate teetering around this same weight all the time.
Please say a prayer for my ankle/foot/knee/back issue. I really need to get to the store or at least make a list for hubby so he can go to the store. I refuse to spend 2 full weeks off plan wallowing in self pity and gaining back every last pound that I lost!