Okay, y'all. Sorry for the 1:00 am post and now the morning post again.
Actually, there's no one that can help me but me. I really do think it is me not feeling well the past few days, but I am just in a FUNK! I counted points yesterday, did good, ate supper at home even though I was sooooo tempted for a steak and fries at Kids Eat Free Day at a local restaurant. Then I literally sulked around pouting that I didn't get to eat out. ROFL. How silly! But that's how I felt - sulky and pouty!
When I don't get what I want, I start filling that void with other things. It was unfeasible to have steak after supper, but it was NOT unfeasible to have chocolate. I made Rice Krispies Treats out of Multigrain Cheerios, and then added some peanut butter and chocolate chip morsels (yep, totally made hubby do a Dollar General run, :-/ ). I ate until I felt sick on the chocolate.
WHYYYY do I do this to myself? Even my husband asked, "Honey, why do you do this to yourself?" I answered honestly, "I don' know! I'm just so ticked that I didn't get steak that now I want to eat and eat until I feel fulfilled." HOW DUMB. But that's how I feel, oddly enough.
I have no doubt that I have food "addictions." Also, this is O week in my cycle. I have found that every. single. month. I have the same exact actions during this week as I do during PMS week. I just don't get it!! I have googled, though, and have found that I'm not alone. Every month, I prepare not to let this week get the best of me. Every month, it does and I have a gain and no self control. Ugh!!!
Also, being sick hasn't helped. I've been drug out by the evening time and have not packed lunches. The husband is ever helpful, but he has been doing evening dishes and kid bed duty since I've not felt well. I'm not going to ask him to stay on his feet even longer and pack our lunches. Plus, I'm sick and sadly bell pepper strips, broccoli florets, and cucumber chunks just don't sound good.
I made a salad with my supper last night and made such a scowling face that everyone wanted to know why I was so grumpy. LOL I wasn't grumpy. That stupid salad just tasted gross to me, and even the RF honey mustard loaded with HFCS didn't help it.
So this morning I wake up late because of that awesome book I stayed up reading. I feel much, much better - just still stuffy. I walk into the kitchen and there is the 9x13 pan staring me in the face and all the memories from last night came flooding back with it - the crunch, the gooeyness of the marshmallows, the saltiness of the pb, the sweetness of the morsels. I know I sound extreme, but in my head that's how I felt. So I ate more of that for my breakfast, along with 2 turkey sausage links for health's sake. LOL
So I'm here confessing once again. I seriously did great all day yesterday until after supper. Then it went steeply downhill. Between hubby, me, and the kids, all those bars are gone now. I don't know if it's good or bad that they're all already gone. At least they aren't here anymore (unless you count them roaming around inside my tummy).
Got this from a good friend this morning. So funny.